I am in a MFA state of mind.
For those of you who don't know, I made the sad mistake of applying to 5 MFA creative writing programs, to spend the next two years of my life as a "writer", where I would romance writing, the art of it all, coffee shop workshops and gabbing about literature.
I asked for it, now the self doubt,the waiting and the cruelty of it all starts.
Highly competitive it is this program, and I have no way of assessing my writing compared to others, never taken a writing workshop or have talked to a actual writer...but write I did and apply I did. Thanks to some very helpful people who I harassed to edit and provide feedback, and some lovely people who wrote me recommendations, I sent out those packages.
Jesus. I have been a wreck. here are my four possible outcomes-
1. Miracle or all miracles - I get in to a program with complete funding.
2. Cherished hope- I get in a program with some sort of scholarship boost.(no way-GPA-2.9)
3. begging to the almighty - I get in to a program, no funding what so ever,but I get in.
4. Probable reality- I get 5 rejection letters at the end of March, causing slow,painful and early death.
If either outcome 1-3 happens, I will give 5o dollar gift cards to who ever was so kind to read this piece of crap. You can hold me to it, just refer to this blog posting :)
If outcome 4 happens - well fuck.
Well then , other than that, these 3 months before my wedding are passing slowly I cant find a job, not even at a mall, not even where a high school degree is optional.
but I have a roof over my head, food to eat, friends and a kick ass fiance who keep me going.
That's all for now
peace
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well, if it is indeed outcome 4, you can be doomed to write a piece about it..thus keeping the writing dream going;although the other scenarios would give you a shiny badge for it. win-win.
ReplyDeleteha ha, the gift card offer is tempting, in this economy, but i won't hold you to it. i'm having the same problem finding a job---i just finished my b.a., and even wendy's won't hire me. congratulations on your upcoming wedding, and good luck again.
ReplyDeleteGood luck to you, both in getting accepted and in staying sane during the wait!
ReplyDeleteAnd congratulations on your upcoming wedding. I love the cards you posted!